Ok so in my months of "trial, tribulations and questioning of faith" one thing ive really kindof realized how arrogant so many christians are(and non-christians too really). Whether you fall on the ET(eternal torture) side of the "fence" or the UR(ultimate reconcilliation) side, each side still likes to act like they have the FULL support of scripture and most of all they act as if they KNOW that they are right. As if its a matter of just being "enlightened" enough by God...and to believe otherwise...well golly you might not have been saved to begin with, partner!(sarcasimm, I greatly hate when people say that to me). One thing ive realized about Christianity in general, or life in general...is that I DONT know if Im right. I dont know if Im right to lean towards universalsim, heck I dont even know if im right to believe in Chrisitanity somedays!
Now dont tune me out here...I believe in what the spirit of what I called on...Christ...Jesus...yesh
And really, I think thats why salvation is more than likely universal in the end of ends or whatever of eternity...while I still believe in Christ and him being of God to pay for us.....because humans are stupid! I heard a quote somewhere and it was absolutley true "everybody thinks that they are right" ...and yet no one ever sees that. Very few people ever challenge why they believe what they do, and then when they do dont challenge their ability to be right about their new conclusions either.
lemme state that its not just a problem exclusive to Chrisitanity, its an agnostic problem, its a muslim problem, its budhist problem, its a hindu problem, its an agnostic problem, its even an athiest problem.
Where am i going with all this? i have no clue. I guess the million dollar question is "How do we really know ANYTHING?" be it be about universal reconcilliantion, christs divinitiy, the bibles validity, Gods exsistence...whether our new assumptions about anything in life are right, religious or non.....whether the color green is in fact...green....whatever youy wanna insert here.
I know that it all comes down to God granted faith in the end (or be it belif in yourself in the athiest case) but...idk. somedays I really feel like im just forcing myself to believe what Ive been taught to believe rather than what I really feel, and its hard to discern which of that is God and which is that is satan and which of that is just me. I feel the most free and oddly, the most close to God and love when I just let myself think freely and ask the hard questions and examine my own assumptions even when I totally dont get it.
one things for sure, whatever you are...completly shutting off the brain to other ways of looking at things, be it what you thought before or never heard, is never a good idea. I think thats safe to say.
The fact is...no one can prove anything in either event.
But thats pretty much the case with anything spiritual...religious...or
Just because something cannot be proved, at least not at said given point...doesnt mean no efforts to attain it or identify somthing or BELIEVE something should not be made. I cant, nor can anyone, gurantee that I will have a good paying job or a job at all after I graduate this spring. Yet that doesnt stop me from hoping, or believing that furthering my education is a good thing.
The same applies with concepts of the spiritual realm and God. I cant prove really anything...but that doesnt mean I should just shrug my shoulders in apathy at the evidence Ive been given. I can be realistic and say I cant prove exactly what the evidence means, but I can at least piece it together to the best of my God-given ability while trying to commune with that which has come into my life.
And that fact and what I feel Jesus has done in my heart and changed me and others is about the only things that keep me from being a total agnostic